givingexposition: (And yet...here we are)
Jaskier ♪ Julian Alfred Pankratz | Feral Bard ([personal profile] givingexposition) wrote2020-01-03 11:55 pm
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[personal profile] yourwitcher 2020-02-02 12:14 am (UTC)(link)
[Geralt sighs when Jaskier gets out of him, but he knows that it's required. It's interesting, being on the other end. His very rare male lovers were rough, direct, and then it was over. Generally, that's how he prefers sex, or has always preferred sex in his past. He is glad though when he moves onto his back and frowns over at Jaskier. The bard is usually clingy after sex, although since boundaries were made between them he's been better about not doing that. Still, Geralt expects him to be closer, and he watches him, contemplative.

He isn't liking his body language. Jaskier is loose and comfortable, both in his skin and in their bed, and there is something heavy on him. Those piercing eyes he wanted to avoid are looking right at him, considering. Something is wrong. He should be acting smug and high on himself for getting to fuck the White Wolf. He should be teasing and making Geralt want to growl at him. His body feels great; relaxed, warm, well-used. But his partner does not seem as satisfied; in heart, if not in body.

Emotions are exhausting. Emotions of other people are particularly exhausting. Geralt's irritated at first; why does he have to ruin this? It was good. He gave himself over to Jaskier, let him take something he rarely does, willingly and eagerly. This is the problem with getting involved with humans with their squishy flesh and squishy hearts. Geralt is not healthy or knowledgeable enough to handle this well or know what to say and do. But he does know that Jaskier is upset and unhappy and he has to deal with that. This is all logic, but his heart also hurts in his chest, not that he'd like to admit that. It makes something whirl in his stomach, seeing unhappiness from Jaskier.]


I am not having sex with you unless you enthusiastically wants it. [And it is clear from his tone he is not enthusiastic about much at the moment. Geralt frowns and then puts an arm around Jaskier, tugging him close. He taps a finger on Jaskier's chin and lifts it, leaning in for a slow and searching kiss. His touch is gentle, his embrace tender. He wants his obnoxiously charming bard back. He doesn't understand why he's upset. He said he didn't sleep with Yennefer. Wasn't that the problem? He's confused enough that he has to ask.]

Why are you upset? I haven't let anyone fuck me in a long time, I thought you'd be pleased. [He hates that he's actually requesting to talk about something when it's easier to ignore it, and to have sex to mask it, as Jaskier offers. But that's what Geralt is comfortable with, not what his bard is, and he has to occasionally compromise. Geralt runs his fingers through Jaskier's hair, cupping his cheek.]
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[personal profile] yourwitcher 2020-02-02 01:42 am (UTC)(link)
[Geralt doesn't need doting and he doesn't care that he isn't being stroked or cleaned or the like. He does like doing that for Jaskier after they're together, but he doesn't need it for himself. He is generally satisfied if his partner is, and if Jaskier didn't like physical affection afterward, that would suit him fine. But he knows that the bard enjoys being held and touched, so it is what he expected afterward. And maybe he's gotten used to it and had been waiting for the familiar touch of his soft hands or a playful joke on his lips.

But pulling Jaskier into his embrace seems to have helped and that eases some of his own concern. If Jaskier it, he'd be truly worried. He likes how the bard feels in his arms. Geralt listens to him, slightly paranoid that he's being lied to but he can hear Jaskier's heartbeat.]
You don't have to thank me for sex. [It's different when he said it, because Geralt meant specifically how Jaskier allowed him to pick the position when he wanted something else. He frowns and does settle a little when Jaskier's fingers move over the rough skin of his chest. That's soothing.

Ugh, so they do have to talk about it. Geralt acknowledges he put it out there to be discussed, but it's still uncomfortable. He doesn't like that Jaskier is sad. He listens to the rest of his confession without speaking, calm and impassive as usual (when he's not being angry). This entire conversation and situation are too complex for him, but he is going to try very hard to surpass low expectations. He is aware that they both were jealous and this has gone over to possessiveness which is unwise. He should have stopped this a long time ago. He should have never allowed it to start in the first place.]


I am not happy about this conversation and I would rather it not happen, but ... I see it has to happen. Talking is not what I do. [It's outside of his comfort zone. All of this is. Geralt would rather get some time to think through what he wants to say; it's more difficult on the spot. He keeps his arm around Jaskier and frowns, looking straight in front of him instead of at the bard.] I didn't sleep with Yennefer because I didn't want to hurt you, and I knew that it would. But she reminded me of something important.

[Geralt leans his head on top of Jaskier's, smelling his hair, sweaty and very him, closing his eyes. He can't look at him when he's talking about serious things like this. It's one of the details that will take time to change.] I can't grow old with you, Jaskier. I am not human. This may not seem like a problem to you now, but it will be, eventually. There will come a time when you need a different lifestyle and the things you loved about me and our life together will no longer suit you. This is something all magical beings learn eventually about loving humans and why we try to avoid it.

[He is speaking quietly and honestly, giving nothing away about his own feelings on it. These are simply facts. This is what happens with mortals and the long-lived. It has yet to happen to him directly, until now. He's never loved, well, anyone before. Hardening his heart and keeping it that way is far easier. The other option will only hurt him, and that's secretly what this is all about. Protecting himself from pain, from inevitable heartbreak and loss.]

If I am not yours and you are not mine, it will be easier, when we have to part. [Geralt kisses the top of his head. It's not easy, talking so much, especially about subjects he'd rather smash down. He is doing it for Jaskier, he is trying his very hardest, even if that means expressing tragic aspects that neither of them want to think about.] But until that time comes, I can promise you that I will have no one else but you. If that ... helps.
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[personal profile] yourwitcher 2020-02-02 04:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Good, you should have enjoyed it. [Geralt grumbles grumpily. It was significant, what he did, at least to him. It made him vulnerable in ways he doesn't feel that comfortable with, but it was a good time and he's glad it happened. Perhaps someday he will consider them being face-to-face for it, and the pleasure Jaskier gave him is a fairly convincing argument. He still feels the aftermath of it, the sting of the scratches and bites, the nice burn inside.

Geralt knows if he came back to Jaskier and had to admit he slept with Yen, and he saw the bard's devastated face, it would have hurt him too. It was only a brief few minutes of that in their rough sex, and he felt badly enough he admitted to it. He doesn't like upsetting Jaskier. He used to claim it was because the bard whined and pouted and was very annoying when displeased. And he still is all those things, but he also has a heart worth bruising and Geralt doesn't want to be the person to cut him there. He doesn't add that Yen and he will have a chance in another fifty or sixty years, if they so wish. This is his now, this is who he chose to spend it with. ]


And you could die with me here on the road. You probably will. You will eventually slow down and make it more difficult for me to keep us both alive. [Yen was right about that. He dies younger in your arms. He understands that Jaskier worries for him, but he is still a witcher, he is lethal and difficult to kill. His human is extremely easy to kill.] This is inevitable, Jaskier. There is no end to us that isn't tragic. I wanted to protect you from that.

[That is a key part of his reasoning with all of this. Why he tried to push Jaskier away, why he wanted to make lines for them, why it's been a struggle whenever they get closer. Yes, Geralt is protecting himself, because chances are he will have to live on and mend himself over it. But he is strong and can do it. He will eventually break Jaskier's heart. If he could stop Jaskier from caring about him, he would have spared him that. But it is out of his hands now. There is no going back. They care. He can't talk Jaskier out of it now.

He does notice the wetness and doesn't remark on it. The bard feels a lot, he understands that. It baffles him how one person can have so much emotion in them, but he simply ignores it. Jaskier is allowed to feel whatever he wants. Geralt's breath intakes as his mouth moves down and he sighs, running his fingers through the dark hair. He frowns after a moment and then tugs at Jaskier's hair, trying to get him to look up.]


You didn't say you won't fuck anyone else either. [It is assumed and he doubts Jaskier would be so foolish, but maybe he wants to hear it regardless. The bard is his. He embraces that now, makes it his own. He will break anyone who touches what is his now, although with understanding that them flirting with Jaskier is impossible to stop. He can live with that. Look and don't touch.] I was nice this time.
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[personal profile] yourwitcher 2020-02-02 05:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[Boast or tease, yes. And Geralt would squirm and grumble, but be fine with it. He would absolutely be furious if Jaskier boasted to anyone or put it in a song though. He knows Jaskier won't; the man values being in his bed far too much to risk it. Geralt is very serious about his personal life remaining that way. Albeit outside of people who hear them having loud sex in inns, but he still won't comment on it.

Yennefer will be pleased to stick her nails in them the next time they see one another, but she will always help them in the end, albeit with some snipping first. She knew Geralt's care for the bard long before Jaskier knew himself. She saw the desperation in Geralt when his only friend was dying, how he was ready to do anything in exchange for his life. How he hoped his harsh words weren't the only things Jaskier remembered. She knew then that something was between them, but it wouldn't stop her from taking what she wanted from him too. She also will probably enjoy poking at them. It's how she is.

Geralt grunts skeptically because yes, that's a romantic way of viewing the world. And untrue. Geralt wants to argue but he also doesn't; if the bard wants to think in those terms, he can't convince him otherwise. He has tried to warn him and point out how they're doomed, and Jaskier is not scared off. When they get there inevitably, it is going to be very painful and he may change his mind on whether tragedy is worth a song or the rest. Geralt isn't so certain he'll feel the same way then, but he cannot stop.

He knows that Jaskier hasn't been sleeping around, but he still wants to hear it. For all his attempts to stop this, they failed. They belong to one another now, until the end. Geralt bares his teeth at Jaskier in warning about the Toss a Coin joke. And then he reaches down, using his strength to pull Jaskier back up and then rolling them so he's on top. It is much more comfortable for him, and he loves the feel of that soft body underneath him. Jaskier often likes to tease or tempt him with kisses all over his body, and Geralt decides it is his turn. He held himself back from too much affection, but perhaps he wants a taste of it.

He starts at Jaskier's neck, naturally, running his tongue along the marks left behind and then sucking a very nice red one since he hasn't had a chance to mark him yet that night.]
Stay. [He commands, glancing up from his place at Jaskier's collar to be certain he heard it. Geralt kisses his way over Jaskier's chest, his heart so loud underneath Geralt's lips, sucking at one of his nipples. His hands move down to encourage Jaskier's legs to spread for him to settle between them easier, his fingers staying at Jaskier's thighs and massaging them with strong fingers. He gives both nipples equal time, flicking his tongue against them when they're at a sharp point.

The purpose of this is to turn the tables, to give Jaskier the type of slow sexual burn that he gives Geralt frequently. After two orgasms he is feeling warm and pleasant, more than willing to get his lust moving again but not yet. He bites his stomach and his mouth travels down, almost going to Jaskier's cock but going past it to lift his foot, massaging it gently and kissing the in-step.]
What do you want? [His voice is almost silky.] You let me pick, now you. [Geralt knows what he wants, always. He wants to be inside of Jaskier, hearing him cry out, but the how can be changed.

He moves Jaskier's leg over his very broad shoulder for the moment, pressing his mouth tantalizingly on the inside of Jaskier's thigh and nothing else at the moment.]
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[personal profile] yourwitcher 2020-02-02 07:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[Geralt knows arguing at this point is pointless. Because the only other option is leaving him now. That's the end result of that argument, saying that the risk of the heartbreak is too high and they should stop. And neither of them are going to do that. He used to think he would have the strength to simply run away, hide out in blood and gore for a time, but now the idea of going anywhere without his bard is rejected. They still have time together before the aging becomes a problem. Jaskier is not as lithe as he used to be, but he still has many good years ahead of him first.

Geralt likes when Jaskier does this to him, although as they both know he gets impatient very quickly. As soon as lust starts to sink into him, he gets impossible to deal with. But he is not there yet, warmly but lightly aroused, enjoying watching Jaskier's body start to wake up again. Geralt may mark Jaskier in public areas of his neck less now, knowing his claim is permanent and he doesn't have to scare off any rivals, but it will not stop him from taking a bite out of him to admire later.

It is necessary to take his time too so he doesn't overstimulate him too quickly, but he can see that Jaskier's relaxing and adjusting to his touches again. Geralt's only ever been this tender in bed with Yennefer, who allows him it when they're having a good day for once, but he doesn't mean to compare them frequently. They're very different people, but they bring out this part of Geralt. He feels safe between Jaskier's legs, permission to be more than an average brutish self. His choice is made and he is content with it so far.

Geralt smiles, amused and surprised, that Jaskier blushes like a maiden. It's charming. He likes the request and shows that by sucking a mark right there, on Jaskier's thigh. It won't bruise enough to make him uncomfortable in pants, but he'll feel it just as much as the ones on his neck. In true Geralt form he gives little notice before he manhandles Jaskier, encouraging him onto his hands and knees. He runs a hand down from Jaskier's hair along his spine and the curve of his arse.]
I liked what you did to me. [He puts oil on his fingers and fits his body to Jaskier's, pressing a kiss to his neck, letting some of his weight fall on the bard. A hand goes around his middle to keep him close. He slides in one finger to start, slowly opening him exactly as he asked.

Despite very much liking how rough Jaskier was on him, he continues being nice this time, although his teeth are still sharp, his body still scarred and rough in comparison to Jaskier's soft skin. Geralt bites Jaskier's ear, growling softly into it. It is difficult to leash himself when he adds a second finger, crooking them just right within Jaskier to hit that hot spot. He keeps his strokes as slow as possible although sometimes his eagerness goes a little faster, and then he catches himself and slows down. He's trying. Jaskier's sweet ass is right there spread in front of him and his now hard cock wants it.

He encourages Jaskier to partially sit up, his fingers still inside of him, his back still right against his front. This gives him a little more freedom to touch him, playing more with his nipples again. It's difficult to keep it together when he feels Jaskier's body open to him as always, playing the bard the way he does his lute, nosing into his hair and breathing deep. His big hand wraps around Jaskier's cock at the base, not to stop him from orgasming the way he did to Geralt, but so he could stroke him very slowly into full hardness.]
You want me in you, don't you? [He rasps, running his thumb at the head of Jaskier's cock while opening him up for a third finger.] Tell me how much.
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[personal profile] yourwitcher 2020-02-02 09:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[Geralt will consider experimenting more at a later date. He still isn't ready to look Jaskier in the eyes when he's the one being fucked, so it's going to be a process. He'll be open to all of it eventually, but despite looking the exact same through the decades outside of new scars, he still is an old dog who can apparently learn some new tricks. He looks forward to opening that door more, but he doesn't come to things quickly. It is good to know they have the time now to test some things out, even if time for him is different than time for Jaskier. But they're on the same page now.

It is a real test when Jaskier starts moving back into his fingers since his instinct is to follow that desire and go harder at him just to hear him gasp. But he stays slow and he lets Jaskier instead set the pace in that case, letting him grind back the way he wants to take it in. Geralt enjoys watching him from this angle; the slope of his back and how it arches when he moves, looking down to watch as his fingers move inside of him. It's a pleasant picture to add to the sweet sound of his moans.

Geralt lets out a breathy sigh when Jaskier drops his head back on his shoulder, making it very easy for him mark and lick him. He gets a little aggressive for a moment, removing his hand off Jaskier's cock to encourage Jaskier's legs to spread even more, so that he's practically spread eagle and freshly open to Geralt's movement. He is impressed with how bendy Jaskier is, and eventually that won't be the truth, so all the more reason to truly enjoy it now. His hand goes right back to his cock to squeeze at the base and stroke him to the tip.

Having him like this makes it extremely easy for Geralt to tip him forward very suddenly, so that his spread knees keep open and Geralt can force him down with his weight. He doesn't get him to touch the headboard, no, he plans on fucking him right into this mattress until he's helpless with it. Geralt hurriedly puts oil on his own cock and more on his hand for Jaskier's cock, and then he lines up and thrusts in.]
Fuck. [Every time he is enveloped by Jaskier's heat and tightness he can't believe it.

Geralt moves his thighs so they're under Jaskier's, encouraging his ass up higher and keeping his knees spread like that, and also taking some of the pressure off him to hold himself. Instead he can just let the witcher work inside of him, leaning back onto his thick thighs when he needs to. One hand firmly puts Jaskier's head into the pillow and he takes his hand off his cock for now, wrapping his arm around Jaskier's middle to hold him in place. And so he can really get Jaskier going before allowing him to come later. He's purposely kept him higher like that so every thrust forward hits him in the prostate, jerking Jaskier forward with every hard and deep rock of his hips.

With his fingers tight in Jaskier's hair holding him down, he can't mark him, so instead Geralt keeps enjoying the view. The sweat dripping down his back, the flush in their skin as their bodies burn up together, looking straight down to witness his cock disappearing into Jaskier's pretty arse.]
Gods you look good taking me. [It's rumbled so low it's barely resembling words, but it can be heard over the slap of his hips meeting Jaskier's arse.]
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[personal profile] yourwitcher 2020-02-03 12:54 am (UTC)(link)
[Some things are not changeable about the witcher. He will try new things. He will occasionally attempt to be gentle and kind. But a big talker he is not. Geralt prefers speaking only when absolutely necessary, and the only reason he spoke so much just a few minutes before was since he considered it necessary. So he is capable of it, when it matters, and will continue to do it when it matters. But most of the time? He prefers his quiet. Jaskier can talk enough for both of them. For every one sentence Geralt snarls in bed, the bard has spoken much more filth, and it is perfect that way. He would refuse to use the word 'relationship' himself, albeit knowing that's what it is. He'll just hmmmm non-committally at it.

Geralt almost laughs at the blushing, with everything they're doing, how can he blush, but the laugh turns into a huff instead, and he kisses the back of Jaskier's neck affectionately. He thinks it's charming and he also understands, because he was flustered when he let Jaskier fuck him. He didn't blush, he was a little nervous. Moving Jaskier around like this really requires intense trust. Jaskier has to know that wherever Geralt is moving him, fast and without warning, will be somewhere he wants and pleasant. He is putting his body in the hands of someone powerful and violent, and trusting him to touch him with only pleasure. Which he tries to.

It is complete ecstasy being inside of Jaskier and having a partner this hot to play off of, but it's all heightened by the sounds. Gods, he can hear these cries in his dreams, and will probably wake up hard because of them. It's immensely sexual and gorgeous, and Geralt could come a dozen times if those cries kept calling to him. Jaskier's the perfect lover. HIs enthusiasm is like none other. Geralt could ride him for hours and never get tired of it. He's thankful that Jaskier finds the elements of his sexual appetite attractive that others aren't always keen on. His teeth, his passion, his strength, his animalistic impulse, and the sheer force of him.

He will deal with the naysayers and whatever they worry about with the noise complaint tomorrow. For now he is fully involved in getting Jaskier to scream himself hoarse. Even if Geralt wanted to hold back there's no way with all of Jaskier's begging and desperate rocks back against him, so he lets loose. Still not hard enough to truly hurt his lover, there is a line he is always careful of, but right up to that limit.

He keeps Jaskier's face in the sheets and uses his weight to pin Jaskier entirely, holding him in place so all he can do is take it now. Geralt can feel Jaskier shaking and nearing the end and the only way to give them what they both need is to make it as fast as he begs. He bends his head down to bite his teeth deep into Jaskier's neck as he likes to do when he's nearing his peak, his upper half holding Jaskier down while his hips keep snapping harder and faster into him. The bed creaks with their movement but does not bang at least, since Geralt is keeping it contained to the two of them.

His arm holding Jaskier moves so he can touch his straining cock again, using precum and the oil from before to make it fast and rough in his strokes. He jerks him in time with his thrusts, aiming straight for his prostate to torment him into coming. Geralt growls into Jaskier's neck, teeth bruising the skin, and goes deep into Jaskier. He is trying not to push him too hard into the mattress so he can still breathe but he pins him harshly as he jerks forward and comes. He snarls like a wild beast, closing his eyes tightly, moving into him like he can't think long enough to stop.]
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[personal profile] yourwitcher 2020-02-03 10:16 pm (UTC)(link)
[Geralt's never had sex with anyone who really takes him this way. It's mostly due to the fact he has sex with strangers and he doesn't want to scare them, and when he's with Yen she's the one in control even when he is on top. Jaskier just lets him loose, lets him take what he needs, and Jaskier also fucking loves it. The way he screams and writhes and moans, it's incredible to be with someone who encourages him that much. Who accepts all that he is and wants him for it too. Geralt's never mistaken sex for love, nor does he now, but he doesn't think it unusual that his emotional connection to Jaskier makes it much better.

He does keep Jaskier's head down especially when he really screams, muffling it part of the way, conscious enough to do that and otherwise he can't think at all. He can only take and take and take until they're both wrung dry. He doesn't realize how far he's really gone until Jaskier speaks and it is an immediate wake up from his haze of lust and aggression. His body is still singing from the third orgasm of the night.

Geralt moves off of him, very gentle as usual in the aftermath. He encourages Jaskier to move onto his back, manhandling him again but with a kind purpose. There may be a slight worry in the way he touches Jaskier's body now, running rough fingers over his limbs to settle him in the bed. He knows the bard says he can take it, but the last thing Geralt ever wants is to hurt someone in bed.

He kisses him sweetly, brushing fingers through his hair.]
Lie there, I'll clean up. [Geralt gets cloth for them and true to his word does exactly that. Despite his mild concern, he still is enjoying the image of Jaskier blissed out and lying on the bed, covered in marks from his mouth. Gods he's attractive. Geralt has no water there to give Jaskier but he does have the last bit of ale that he didn't finish, so he brings it over and offers it to Jaskier. He truly loves that rasp in his voice, but he still wants him to swallow through it.

These are the ways that Geralt shows that he cares. Words may not be his strong suit, but actions are.]
Sit up, have some of this. [He knows that Jaskier hates his voice being too different, it is his trade after all, so it's the least he can do for now. They sweat a lot in their sex. Geralt folds over the sheets on the side of the bed where they both came, so it is comfortable enough for the night. Only after he does his due diligence does he allow himself on the bed too.

He puts his arm around Jaskier and encourages him to rest his head on him after the ale, like usual.]
You would tell me if it's too much. [It's not a question, it's a statement. He doesn't want the bard to cripple himself to please his witcher lover.]
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[personal profile] yourwitcher 2020-02-03 11:53 pm (UTC)(link)
[Alcohol isn't the best option to be hydrated, but he isn't going to go get them water, since he will immediately have to hear about how their obnoxiously loud sex is unappreciated by the guests. He also would have to put clothes on which is not going to happen. He is feeling too good and loose for that. Since Geralt gets up very early, he will probably slip out of bed while Jaskier sleeps it off and make a deal with the innkeeper. And bring up some food and water for the bard.

If he's sneaky enough he might go kill the monster while Jaskier's still sleeping. The sex will energize him and the clarification of their situation gives some measure of temporary peace. He'll feel like a fight and good kill when he gets up. He'll decide in the morning depending on how early he's unable to stay in bed. He doesn't want his bard to pout at him if he's gone when he wakes. But if he finishes the kill and makes the townsfolk content enough, he can come right back to bed and wake Jaskier up a delicious way. A problem for the morning.

Jaskier really does look fantastic when he's thoroughly fucked like this. He makes a very pretty figure. Geralt likes the feel of his eyes on him too; his body has always been something to fight and kill with. Jaskier's open admiration and attraction to it feels good. He doesn't have to flex to look more impressive; his muscles have muscles. He practically is always flexing. He's big and broad and he's all Jaskier's. He hmmms in reply to that and smirks, golden eyes warm.]


You stink of me even after several washings. My scent isn't leaving because of a cloth. [Geralt would know. Anyone with a nose like him could tell who Jaskier belongs to from a town over. He isn't disgusted by fluids of any kind, but it is a symbolic effort. It does make him feel a little better, being able to communicate through action. He likes to be reminded he's a man not a beast, which the latter can be more of a problem the longer he's apart from society and hostile toward it. Jaskier's solved that problem since the day they met.

He makes a snarling sound that's actually more of a content rumble, tilting his head up for the little kisses while his eyes stay shut. He is so very soft when it comes to the bard; it's important no one else ever knows. Except for Yennefer. She'll torment him enough over it. Geralt's eyes open after the peck to his mouth and he leans into it, kissing him a little deeper. He is definitely feeling well fucked and drowsy at the moment, which is rare and nice, and he tugs gently at the bard's arm so he'll stop being on his elbows and rest on Geralt instead.]


I am holding back. [He mumbles.] I could fuck you to death if I didn't hold back. [Geralt smirks and strokes his hair.] Take fucking note of that next time you're being a tease.